It's All Relative -OR- This is the longest post I have ever written!

Today Tommy told me to go out, on my own, and be an adult woman. I have been having a VERY rough 2 weeks- and today was my limit. I needed a "Me" day! Between the 5 days of potty training (1/5- 1/9) and not leaving the house, Paisley waking up at odd hours of the night, to having Tommy be gone for a few days at a time- I was EXHAUSTED!!! Today was my day. I started off going to Old Navy to buy some new jeans. After much success, I went to Target! That was a givin. What can be be better than Target with no whinny, grabby, irritable child?? Then after a WONDERFUL convo with MS. Fisch herself- (by the way, what happened? I think we lost connection!) I headed to Carlsbad to meet up with Sarah for lunch at the Pita Pit, and coffee at Starbucks-followed by a solid hour of gossip, venting and cheering up! One of my most favorite things to do with a friend or alone is to sit at Starbucks and people watch. There are so many interesting people who frequent Starbucks :) Once we finished we went our separate ways and I continued my "Me" Day and went to Barnes and Noble to sit and read. YESSSSS!!!!! I found a bunch of great books and enjoyed the quiet time of walking around and looking for books I wouldn't normally look at.

While I was at B&N, looking in the "Spirituality" section, I realized how much I have lost the TRUE Kalyn. That the Kalyn 4 years ago, pre pregnancy was a completely different girl. Granted I had a different purpose in life- but I'm talking night and day. Like Oil and Vinegar (hahah like Balsamic Vinegar and Ranch, or Ca. and La.) You get it- I know :) For the past two and a half years I have 110% dedicated myself to being the best Mommy to Paisley that I could be. I have given up my spa pedicures, my $130 hair appt.'s, my waistline, my alone time, and my personal time where I could be mad or sad for however long I chose. And looking back- I think it was all worth it.

It's all relative. That's right!! IT'S ALL RELATIVE!!! I have been hard on myself for the past few days because I hate feeling defeated, or like I am having a pitty party. I kept telling myself that at least my husband isn't gone for a year and I am having to do it on my own. That I need to shut up and be a strong woman. But a good friend told me that it is okay to feel upset- or overwhelmed, because it is all relative. To each his own. That everyones pain or frustration is different. My husband may not be deployed for a year, but for me, right now- it sucks. And that's okay. And to quote my Mom, that "This too will pass"!

Ohhh..... I dunno. (throwing my hands up in the air) This is life. I love life. I love the ups and downs, and looking into MY little life- it ain't that bad and I am proud to say I wouldn't change it for anyone else's!!!